2013 2014 resolutions, baby. Starting from the Lunar New Year instead this year, because… why not.
- Be a better friend, partner, daughter, sister, person than I was last year.
- Believe in myself and my capabilities more.
- Don’t blame myself for everything.
- Think before I speak.
- Get over my fear of deep volumes of water.
Tendency to be impulsive has decreased. Very fucking proud of myself.
That feeling when you get eleven hours straight of the best uninterrupted sleep after two days of barely sleeping… I am in heaven.
Last night was miserable. Tonight’s sleep looks to be the same.
My need for physical reassurance is beyond ridiculous. Why can’t I just believe it when I’m told reassuring things… It’s not like there’s any reason for me to be lied to. But I can’t get myself to believe it, not completely, and it does my head in with doubts and worries that make me unbearably sad over the smallest things. It’s ridiculous. And it fucks everything up.
Here’s to no sleep before my 5am alarm to get up for work.
Can’t sleep, nothing left to study for. Pokemon all night.
I turn 20 today. Now. At the moment?
I’m a real adult now. I’m gonna have to go do real adult things now that I can’t be called a teenager anymore. Like, uh, taxes.
…I still look 12.
A blocked nose at night means waking up the next morning short of breath and with an ache in my chest. Bloody asthma.